Bleh.
So, I caught my husband's cold. Spent yesterday afternoon and today home from work, in some kind of small attempt to not spread the germs around to my coworkers (and the cold medicine was making it hard to really concentrate on anything, anyway.) But as this is one of those colds that lingers, I'm going to go back into work tomorrow, despite still coughing and sneezing and having a voice like a frog. I can't stay home forever, nice as that would be.
Our library's online system has been completely down for, what, 4 days now? It's pretty bad. We can't do anything - and even I'm at the point where I'm wishing it was like the old days when everything was done by writing down on cards. At least we'd be able to get some work done. I'm really a huge advocate for technology, but it also really needs the support and knowledge behind it to make it work, which our library system does NOT have. This switch to the new database system (which is totally wrong for us and is overloaded, which is why it "broke") is probably the worst thing they've ever done, and now they're totally paying for it.
And finally the sad news - we've decided to go ahead and set a date for saying goodbye to our sweetest kitty, Kaylee. Our vet has agreed to come to our house (so we don't have to put her through the terror of a car ride to the clinic) on June 6. Three weeks... it's not enough time, of course. And I'm also hoping it's not too much time, for her. She's definitely feeling some pain, although we are also giving her some kitty painkillers every couple of days. If she makes a turn for the worse then we'll just have to take her to the vet ourselves. I hope her last few weeks with us are at the very least like they've been - she's still eating and drinking water fine, and she still cuddles us and seeks us out for attention. She doesn't play anymore, and there are times she'll retreat upstairs to be away from everyone for a while. But, she's still our Kaylee, at least for the time being. It will be very hard to say goodbye.
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**HUGS** I'm so sorry to hear this. It's the worst news a pet-parent can ever get. Trying to figure out just when is the best time to let go is so incredibly hard. On the one had, you want them to have every bit of life they can have left, and you don't want to do it too soon. On the other, you don't want them to get to the point where they feel so much pain. And I think part of the worst of it is we can't explain to them what's going on - and ask them their opinion. They can't tell us when the pain is too much, or if they're feeling pretty good, or what.
Our decision to say goodbye to Kaylee in three weeks is mostly based on her illness seems to be pretty slow, but it IS inevitably making her quality of life worse. Her ear irritates her, and her face is so swollen, and even though she's still eating okay, I'm worried she'll get to the point where the tumor is impeding on her throat and she won't be able to swallow anymore. I don't want to put her through that - I want to say goodbye to her before her dignity is gone.
My thoughts are with you and Eddie - similarly, if YOU need anyone to talk to, feel free to email me. It's some measure of comfort knowing that someone else is going through the same thing at nearly the same time. I hate that we have to do this at all though, you know?
I feel for you. I;m glad your vet has agreed to come to you though. That will be much nicer for Kaylee. She can relax at home.
I am now speechless. You are in my thoughts
Thank you for your offer of communication. I'll most likely take you up on it.
Um, yeah, I won't change it, because something like this takes all the hearts in the world...